An anorexic
teenager who weighed little over four stone and given 48 hours to live
has shared harrowing photos of her illness after a miraculous recovery.
When Gemma Walker was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa and bulimia aged 14, doctors warned she would die without treatment.
The teen weighed a tiny 4.5 stone forcing her devastated parents to consider palliative care.
Over
the next seven years, she was admitted to hospital three times with one
emergency care and two long term psychiatric and re-feeding admissions.
Now
22, Miss Walker has posted both harrowing pictures and those which show
her remarkable recovery to celebrate six months of being well.
She hopes
that by sharing the shocking photos of her skeletal form and her return
to health, she will inspire other people battling eating disorders.
'It's hard for me to look back at the photos, not so much how I physically looked but more so the feelings,' she said.
'I look at each photo and remember exactly how I was feeling, or what was behind that photograph.
'I
felt numb, the days just melted into each other and I wished each day
by, hoping that I would just pass peacefully in my sleep. My family and I
were ready to let me pass.'
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Her father Steve revealed seeing pictures of is daughter at her worst brings back the pain and constant anguish he saw.
'They were the hardest and most terrifying years of our lives, checking
on her each morning to see if she was still breathing, to see if her
weak heart was still beating,' he said.
'Some nights we would just sit on the floor by her bed, just to be with her, there was nothing else we could do.'
Miss
Walker, from Gold Coast, Australia, was severely depressed would trick
doctors to think she was gaining weight by wearing gym weights and began
to self-harm to cope with the pain.
And when she did take steps to recover, she found she struggled with binge eating and suffered from re-feeding syndrome.
The desperate teen would consume 6500 calories in just 20 minutes causing her to pass out and experience hallucinations.
My
weight gain was very rapid. In less than seven months I put on 40
kilograms, tripling my body weight, however I was at my worst mentally.
'People believed I was better because I looked healthier that I was better and no longer anorexic.
'Chronic
bingeing and bulimia lasted almost 18 months, it was a complete 360
from strict obsessive rules to complete loss of control.'
'I also have
my beautiful parents to thank, they literally been through everything
with me, it's only now that I realise what incredible, loving parents
they are.
'I am the happiest I've ever been now, it's such an amazing, surreal feeling.
'I do believe that I have fully recovered and that my anorexia is now just a huge chapter that has closed.'
Mr Walker said her recovery has given the family 'so much joy.'
'She is full of energy and hope, which is something we never thought we'd see in our daughter again,' he said.
'Seven
years is a long time to have your baby suffering, a long time to have
your child numb, with no voice, no personality - just a lethal
controlling obsession.
'She has overcome this by herself, we have merely been by her side.'
Bulimia is an unfortunate eating disorder to have. I can see how certain things that are said to the bulemic is actually harmful as opposed to helpful, even as jokes. I understand what you mean about moderation and portion control. I myself have a hard time controlling my moderation and I was the fat kid growing up. One of my parents made my life a living hell because of my weight.
ReplyDeleteJeffery @ New Dawn Treatment Centers